First week back of school = survived.

But really? Not really. Keep reading.

1. L-i-t is ruining me. I'm doing horribly in practice exams and haven't bothered revising but, somehow, 2 years of this crazy fucked up class has managed to have perverse effects on my mind. I analyze everything. And I don't mean books or poems, which would be GREAT if I could actually do. Like fore example, I ask myself why does that bee flying past and what that cloud looks like and I wonder how long that tree has been there for. Wait, that's not even analyzing, this is just questioning every mundane thing that I come across. Everything. In my mind of course. Never out loud.

2. I think I have obsessive compulsive disorder. Or perfectionism. Or just plain I-don't-like-change-ism. I do the same thing everyday. And it has to be that way. I feels weird if I change it. I think if someone filmed me each day, it'd be doing exactly the same order of things apart from different school classes (If I had it my way, it'd be the same classes every day). I have a certain way to put on my uniform. I have to pack my bag in order from fattest book to thinnest. I have a shower at 6pm everyday. I turn on the hot water first, then the cold. Before showering I have to clean my contacts, my right one, then my left one. I have to open the conditioning solution bottle first, then the cleaner. I use a ratio of 3:1 because the bottles sizes are 3:1 and that'll mean I'll most likely finish both bottles at the same time. When eating dinner I have to finish before 6:30. Each bite has to have a peice of meat and vegetable. When I turn off the computer I have to use my right hand. I have to do EVERY question in my maths book. And write down EVERY word. I get pissed if I can't do it. I get pissed if I don't get it. I'm always checking the time even if it's only been one minute. It angers me when I have an appointment or something that interrupts my schedule. I have dreams about numbers and acid + base reactions.

I have to listen to one song constantly over and over. At first the same song was on repeat for just a week or even for just a few days but recently I've been listening to Love Club for a month now and I've had Superhuman for like a year and a half and I'm still ALWAYS listening to it and I STILL can't get enough of it.. and its not like its lyrical/musical genius.. T__T Problem with letting go?

3. My thoughts go on loop. Loop. Loop. Circle. Circle. Dot. Dot. Okay, not dot. But neverending circle. Like a train on train tracks. Except I'm not gonna ever reach anywhere and I'm not getting off because when I press the button to exit, it doesn't flash green then open. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA. I just made an analogy. It takes me 2 hours to sleep because of the looop looooop. Loop. Like an onion ring. Except not edible. At least onion rings fill your belly.

Overall I've come to the conclusion that I think I'm dying. Or I'm going to go to a mental hospital and get diaognised with insanity and then die. HAHAHA.

I bet you're laughing. XD