heartquake

So today was pretty good. I had a double spare in the morning so enjoyed a sleep in til about 9ish. For some reason I can't seem to ever sleep in any more than an hour when I know I have to go to school... Jess messaged, the year 12's were doing muck up pranks.. and it kinda hit me and I know I say this a lot but truly, what the fuck, how friggen FAST did this year pass? Seriously we're already at the end? Already? Are you sure? Is it actually still February and I've been dreaming all this time? My life is fucking passing before my eyes. I swear I'm gonna blink and I'll suddenly be wrinkly and menopause-ey. Time is my biggest enemy.

Mum offered to give me a lift to school cause apparently it looked like it was going to rain and she thinks it's going to kill me? LOL, I was thankful though, she's been pretty nice to me this week. And for the past few days she keeps smiling when she looks at me it's actually freaky like what did I bloody do wrong this time this time.. Yeah, got to school at around 10:30, met Jess in the library and we went to order lunch :D Then I went to English, I think, can't remember that far back. Had Mrs. Connel cause Du Pont was away, she was wearing yet another ridiculous outfit, some hideous pinstripe suit with a vest et tie. Well, at least she's able to co-ordinate and have some sort of a unique sense of style.. at least she tries unlike the other teachers? Some year 12 girls came in with the video camera and started 'interviewing' her about her fashion style, presumably for the farewell year 12 assembly, hahah they were saying nice things but the moment they went out the door they gave us the gagging/choking action + rolled their eyes, LOLOL so funny. Then I had Chem, which was pretty uneventful,. After that it was lunchtime, was awesome weather!
Then had Biology, Simmo wasn't there so I went to the library and hardcore worked at the homework questions in an attempt to lighten the homework load. Last lesson of the day was Literature. Got my last SAC back and I did super-well, I was so happy I couldn't stop smiling. In the mock exam in the holidays I had gotten 4/10 and 6/10 for my essays so as you could imagine that didn't make feel that great, but today my confidence level pretty much zoomed up. But....... it will probably zoom back down again when I get my creative sac mark back which we handed in last term but is taking ages to get back. I got a bit of shit from certain people for writing the analysis beforehand and memorizing it, well they didn't say it outright but I could feel it in the atmosphere and by the stuff they said... And now I'm going to justify myself. How was I cheating? I've been memorizing my essays for SACS ever since year 10. They always give us the passages or the essay topics the day before, why wouldn'nt you take advantage of that. Especially with Lit, it's year 12, like.. why wouldn't you? WHY? Isn't that a logical thing to do? It's like you obviously study for a maths test or chem test.. And it's not like someone else wrote it, I did. And I had an english SAC that day too, so I wrote and memorised that as well.. so altogether that day I wrote 2,000 words in 200 minutes. I THINK IM AWESOME, LOLOL. Basically I just wrote that to make myself feel better but it didn't really help. Cause now I just feel guilty for getting a good mark. I need to stop caring about what people think.

Went to 7/11 after school to get V drink, bought Hayley one too like I always do every week because it's the only way to get her to come along. Then I went home, first thing I heard was that I had to go and get a SWINE FLU SHOT, but I didn't really freak out and it didn't hurt at all anyways. Somehow it's reached the point where I think you're a pussy if you're scared of needles. Ya pussy.

And now........ nothing :) I think I'm gonna watch Angels & Demons which Chloe gave me to borrow.. but there's a James Bond movie on telly soon.. oh an Love Actually too. What should I watch D:?

Time to proofread my rant.